sometimes I feel like I have so much to say but don't know where to start. its like looking at a mountain top and being overwhelmed by its sheer size and instead of trying to take it on, I just turn around and walk away. I'm sick of staying silent and I hope this could be the right outlet to make it happen. I really dont care if I offend or hurt anyone because, frankly...I really dont give a shit. We live in too sensitive of a world today and it kills me! Everyone is so quick to blab on about how every little fucking thing they see or hear is offensive and should be stripped away from existence. I say, FUCK YOU, lets keep it! The thing about life is that NOBODY will ever get it right, no matter how far we advance in technology or how many drugs we come up with to cure whatever it is that you THINK is ailing you at that time, we are never going to perfect the way we as humans pursue what we call life. What is so wrong with negative emotions anyway? we are raising a generation of children that will be hooked on at least three different types of "behavioral" drugs by the time their ten. Its as if we are spiraling out of control and the best way to deal with it is to fuck up the generating that comes after us so they could be worse off than we are. I could almost see our train of thought..."I know we're a fucked up generation...but holy shit...I'm glad I'm not a kid these days cause they're FUCKED" Being the father of a 3 year old, as foolish as this may seem to certain groups of parents but...I want my daughter to feel disappointment, anger, frustration, yes even pain (not physical obviously) as much as it sucks to feel said emotions it also brings out in us a sense of life that we rarely see otherwise. These are what build us, guide us, teach us, they create character and inner strength. I feel that its my job to teach my daughter how to deal with these emotions and in a way that will help her grow and mature. I refuse to shelter my daughter from what this world really has to offer, not dope her up because she cant concentrate...SHE'S A FUCKING KID!! In, fact in the midst of writing this I finally realized that the zombie apocalypse wont be from some virus gone wrong or from some bad food. It will be our society in about 4 generations. Numb to life, mindlessly walking about in a drug induced stuper. In other words, WE ARE BREEDING AND CREATING THE ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE! Let kids live their lives, let them fall and stumble but be there to pick them up, dust them off, show them their mistakes and encourage them to keep going. I'll end is with this, Thomas Edison once said "I have not failed, I just found 10,000 ways that wont work"

In no way am I a liberal or conservative person and I refuse to live my life by either side of that spectrum. I am simply me, living my life the best way I see fit. Do I have all the answers? Absolutely not, and I'm sure in some way, the way I live my life is offensive to some sect of people out there.

the sun can kiss...
it can ripen and flourish
the sun can burn...
it can exhaust and destroy
the sun can be the cause of an unlimited source of energy and yet take away anything that you hold tight...
it could be unrelenting, unforgiving, and punishing.
we crave it, curse it, bask in it, and enjoy the feel of its warmth on our skin.
The sun could drench and surround you in all its beauty in the same way a blanket warms the chilled body in the cold of night or the feeling of ones skin pressed against another's, arms and legs intertwined...clinging to each other as if this could be their last moment...the last breath that they take together....

now replace the sun...with love...

there's first for everything

and here...we...go...